Not that my story is anywhere near one of the worst from yesterday's storms, but now knowing the damage caused and lives taken, it begs the question that ran laps in my brain yesterday.
Run or Hide???
It was the first real severe storm with my son. The 'mark' I'm leaving on this world. The reason I get up every morning. The person who relies solely on my decision to stay safe and be protected. Let me tell you... Yesterday for a brief moment... I didn't know what to do other than to prepare... for both!
I'll set the stage for you... I was watching the weather reports from all stations. I was looking for specific information on where the tornado was. Depending on who you were watching, they would alternate between pictures from either the helicopter, ground crews, or radar. In my opinion, times like these call for street level radar at all times. Put the pictures in a box on the side or something, but I need to know what area is in danger and where it is on the map so I can make an informed decision. Below is the last picture I saw before my cable, phone, and internet went out..

This tornado was just a few miles from my house. I was ready to run. I put a heavy coat on Austin, the cat in the carrier, the dog on the leash and my keys in my hand. But there in that instant, without any information, I was lost.
Was it on the ground? The poor people whose houses were currently being torn up. Was mine next? All of these thoughts, and many more, screamed from every corner of my brain. I had to do something.
I fired up the DVD player and turned it up loud to keep A's attention while I frantically prepard to hide. I ripped open the closet door, the only completely interal room in our house, and started pulling everything out. Once ready I had to find some information. I pulled up the first analog signal(seriously, we need to think about this digital thing) I could find. It was all fuzz, but I had sound. The hail was banging down, Barney was yelling over it, and I was huddled infront of the bedroom television staring at snow. Listening. Trying to make out any image I could so I could tell where the beast was.
Amidst all the chaos it seemed to be gone. Really?? Minutes earlier is was tearing up the earth and then gone? I wasn't sure, and it seemed the weather man I was listening to wasn't either. The hail got worse, my truck can tell you about that, and man was it dark outside. I went to our sunroom to look it in the eye. It was there, the low hanging wall cloud, the circulation, the relentless roar of hail on a metal roof. I watched for anything to give me a sign. My neighbors' homes, the trees, the clouds. Where was it? I thought for a moment that I hope this is not how I go. Standing in a room full of windows and thin sheet metal. I was vigilant, watching, preparing, ready at a moments notice... To hide!!!
And just like that IT was gone. The sky cleared, the roar of the hail ended, the weather man's voice got louder, almost as loud as Barney sining on the home stero system, the wind stopped and so did the rain. It was calm outside.
But inside my head it was anything but. I was scared, not necessarily for myself, but for my son. It was one of those moment's as a parent that I will never forget. He trusted me through every moment, knowing I was there and was doing what was best for him. Didn't waver once.
He's mine, I love him, will take care of him, protect him, provide for him, and plan for him every day of my life.
It is truly a great experience to have the title Dad...